Tara (T.G.) Tillman is an edu-tainer currently residing in Omaha, NE.
My IYLALI Story: Twenty-five years ago, I researched the meaning of my name, Tara. I found out Tara was the name of the Mother of all Buddhas. "She is the female Buddha of enlightened activity." (abuddhistlibrary.com)
There are 21 aspects of her. As I have grown into the woman I am, I feel I've embodied at least four of the Taras.
Let me share how. The first three major “points of positive change,” that have destined my path are:
1. The birth of my daughter - I was 18 with no job prospects when my daughter's father left me for someone he said, "wanted more in life." Probably had something to do with me catching him with said woman at his grandmother's house. I was devastated. The experience left me mortally wounded and essentially killed that version of Tara. The version born from this pain was determined to change my trajectory. I became Red Tara, the destroyer of opposing forces. I picked myself up, wiped my tears away, and went on with life. I refused to let his abandonment break me.
II. The birth of my son – I was 23, still with no job prospects when my husband left me for someone he said, “wanted more in life.” Probably had something to do with me catching him with said woman at our local mall. I was infuriated. The experience left me feeling some kind of way and essentially killed that version of Tara.
The version born from this pain was determined to never need another person EVER again. I became Black Tara, the invincible. I picked myself up, straightened my wig out, and went to the local community college to study Information Technologies. I refused to be “brought low.”
III. The day I landed my first “Big Gurl” position – I was 26 and still in college when I got the call to start an internship with a major Fortune 500 as a Lotus Notes Administrator. Probably had something to do with my 3.00 GPA…just saying. I was elated. The experience left me feeling fabulous! However, I needed to prepare myself for corporate America so I had to step up my game!
I consciously killed that version of Tara. The version born from this pain was determined to change my financial future. I became Yellow Tara, the increaser. I gathered my babies, bought a new house, and never looked back. I refused to accept any less. I am now Red/Yellow Tara, the poverty eliminator. She is also the Auspicious (conducive to success; favorable – dictionary.com) and the Giver of Intelligence. This is the Tara
I feel I am to be…today. But hey…who’s to say down the road. It won’t matter in the end because every aspect
of Tara is wonderful.
How: How do I inhale life? One life lesson at a time. How do I live life after the life lesson? Grateful for the experience. Every last life lesson has made me a better woman. Some have been a piece of cake to learn, (the first time I performed my one-woman play) while others hurt me down to the DNA
(my second husband’s death after one year of marriage).
What: I'm finishing up my book, "Caterpillar In, Butterfly Out: The Lessons Learned Along the Way." It's based off my one-woman play of the same name.
Words: I am a work of art in constant flux. -Me
If you stand for nothing, you'll fall for anything. -Alexander Hamilton