My IYLALI Story:
October 2003 and August 2009 were two life changing times for me. In October 2003, I had a thoracotomy (chest surgery) after experiencing chest pains in March of the same year which landed me in the emergency room. After a small mass was detected, followed by months of chest X-rays, CT scans, lung biopsies and no diagnosis, I chose to get a 2nd opinion and went the best of the best... the Mayo Clinic, where I decided to have the mass removed. The procedure took place on October 23, 2003. The final diagnosis was Castleman's disease, which is a lymphatic disorder, and thankfully, it was not cancerous. August 2, 2009 - I was 6 weeks pregnant and once again found myself in the emergency room after I had fainted, and was on my 3rd day/night of severe abdominal cramps. I was told that I had an ectopic pregnancy, I was bleeding internally because one of my fallopian tubes had ruptured. The exact words from the doctor was that if I didn't have emergency surgery to remove it, I would bleed to death. Needless to say, I had the surgery. I only had to stay in the hospital for one day but had to receive 2 units of blood due to the amount of blood that I had lost. Although I have 2 beautiful girls , losing the pregnancy was hard but having almost lost my life
and the thought of leaving them took a toll on me emotionally and mentally. Seven months later, I lost the ONLY man to ever love me unconditionally... my father.
What: You never think that something so traumatic can happen to you not once, but twice. I have a scar on my back from the first surgery that reminds daily of what I went through. I call it my testimony scar. I am a Christian with a very strong faith. I thank God for my healing and for not taking me from my girls. Life is so precious and it's one thing that I believe people take advantage of. Until you experience something firsthand, you never truly know just how blessed you are to have your life, no matter how bad things can get at times and please believe, I have had my share of bad times. When those tough days come and I'm sitting around by myself having a pity party, I remember ALL that He has brought me through, even when I didn't feel I deserve it, and I just look up and say "Thank you". The one good thing I can take away from my first health scare, was hearing my father tell me how proud he was of me and that he loved me. That was the first time I had heard him say that. Don't get me wrong, I KNEW that he did, no doubt about it but he was a Capricorn and they have a strange way of showing and expressing love.
How: By never giving up no matter how dark the days get at times or how alone I feel. I know that my life was spared, not once, but twice, for a reason and it's up to me to continue to keep my head up, if not for myself but for my daughters. No one ever said things would be easy and sometimes you have to go through the tests in order to have a testimony. I FINALLY understand what that means. God has a purpose for my trials and tribulations.
Words: Stay true to yourself.
Kim's Ink: I have 7 tattoos and they all represent something special to me especially the 4-leaf clover which is in honor of my Dad and our Irish heritage on his side of the family; and the 2 Chinese symbols I have one on each side of my neck that represent Inner Strength and Inner Peace, both of which are necessary to have in order to deal with all that I've been thru and continue to go thru on this journey called Life.